About Me
I just want to be honest here on this about me page. I want whoever reads this to have a better understanding of who I am as a person. I want deeper relationships and I don’t really think that can happen without vulnerability. And maybe if I’m vulnerable, others around me will see and want to be vulnerable too. That’s where all the magic lies. That’s where connection happens.
What is really going on in that head of yours? Good or bad, positive or negative? I want to know it all. I want to see behind the masks and the armoring that “protects” you. What are you scared of? What brings you joy? What have you always wanted to do but have never let yourself do? What dreams and intentions do you have for your life? What gifts do you bring to the world? What are you struggling with right now? How can I better support and love you? What do you see in me that maybe I can’t see in myself? Good or bad. I want to see it all. I want soul.
As much as I want to know these things about everyone around me, I want to know them about myself more. I’m working on it though. Working on finding soul. It’s not an easy or fun path sometimes but it’s necessary for me to survive. I can feel the truth of that. I’ve been too depressed, too anxious, too small, too ignored, too suicidal, too self critical, too frustrated, too lost, too confused, too self sabotaging, too self hating, too angry, too destructive to myself and others around me, too victimized, too unfulfilled, too stuck, too aware to not be on this path. This path is what I’m meant to do with my life. It is a lifelong path. A path to finding soul. To find out who I really am and who the people around me are. This path has been the only thing to save me and the only thing that has brought me real peace.
If all this sounds dramatic that’s ok. But it’s my truth. My truth might not be your truth and that’s ok. We’re all different people living different lives with different perspectives and different circumstances and different truths. That’s the point of life. We are all different expressions of the same universal and divine lifeforce. We are different but we are the same. I believe that we can find a piece of ourselves in anyone on this planet. Some sliver of a similarity. It’s not good or bad it just is. Others are not good or bad, they just are. You are not good or bad, you just are. You are the universe in human form.
Don’t feel bad if all this isn’t for you, but this is how you’ll get to know the real me. If you’re reading this and thinking something along the lines of this does not sound like the Audrey I know, it might be because I am still learning how to live my truth in my every day life, not just on a blog page. I’m also still learning how not to let my excitement and passion come across as shoving it down someone’s throat so I hold back in situations where I could talk about these things. It could also be because maybe there is a story in your head about who you think Audrey is based on things in the past. It’s also because life is crazy and busy and it isn’t always the time or place to talk about these things. So this blog can be the time and place to talk about them. But like I said, life is crazy and busy and there isn’t always time to live, work, feed yourself and your family, do chores, be a good neighbor, raise kids, pets, or significant others, have friends, follow through on obligations, exercise, eat healthy, do yoga, meditate, be dedicated to a spiritual practice, drink enough water, make sure you get enough self care, spend time doing things that bring you joy, develop hobbies, learn something new, read ANOTHER blog, listen to ANOTHER podcast, read ANOTHER book. Life is too complicated. Slow it down. Pick out what is most important and throw the other things out. Bring more peace into your life. The peace of just being and not doing. All that to say that life is crazy and busy and beautiful and I’d love for you to read the blog if it calls to you. I have no expectations other than to get my insides on my outsides so I don’t explode :) Thanks for reading!
